We're losing her.

[feuervogel]

This morning, I noticed that Isis' pupils were different sizes, so I called the vet, and they worked her in. It's probably a brain tumor. The vet suggested humane euthanasia, because she has "days" left. I was there by myself, so I asked if we could wait. He gave her a steroid shot, and now I'm home. Ben's coming home soon.

She's had trouble eating the last few days, and she's wobblier than before, despite glucosamine supplements (which helped for a few days, but she got worse again). She can't see very well, she gets stuck in corners, and she misses the litter box a lot.

We won't be home from tomorrow morning until Sunday evening. Right now, she seems happy enough, talking some, walking around and stuff. I took her outside, and she found some grass and ate it. But she could have a seizure any time. I don't want her to die when I'm not around. I don't want to be callous and euthanize her before the con so she doesn't die alone. I don't know what to do.

I'm not ready for this.

Comments

[ladyegreen]

*Hugs you.*

I'm so sorry about Isis; I know how awful this is and how heartbroken you are.

No one can make that choice for you but I'm so very sorry you have to make it all.

All my love,
H.

[kouredios]

I'm so, so, so sorry. I had a beloved cat ten years ago who very suddenly and seriously came down with Feline Leukemia (was likely carrying it dormant since kittenhood), and within two weeks, he went from completely normal to being on the edge of expiring. We also had to consider whether to euthanize, and weren't sure where the line was to cause the least harm to us and him (it happened so quickly--and over the holidays--and we were just gutted.) We ended up making the appointment, when we knew it was just a matter of hours, and he ended up passing the night before we had scheduled to bring him in.

Whatever you do, I'm sure it will be the best thing to do. Because you make your choice out of love. And she knows.

[warpig1979.livejournal.com]

I don't know if anybody else's advice is at all useful at this point, but... If it's a choice between letting her go now and being certain that you're there with her, and potentially losing her while you're not there, it seems like it may be better to do it sooner.

I can't imagine your weekend is going to be any fun either way. But I don't know if you want to be doing the con and all the while wondering about what might be happening to her while you're away.

I don't know. It's a lousy situation. I'm really sorry it had to come to this all of a sudden. If there's anything I can do to help, drop me a line.

[ranyart]

It was really hard for us to make this decision when Shenny got sick so suddenly. I'm so sorry that y'all have to go through this too.
I really don't think it would be cruel or callous to euthanize her before this weekend, especially if there's the chance she might die on her own. As sad as it was to be there with Shenny, she seemed completely calm and comfortable and I was glad we could be with her as she passed, snuggling and petting her. I think I would have made the choice to do it sooner if there had been the chance that she might die without us there.

*huge hugs for you and Ben* If there's a way I can provide long-distance support, let me know.

[krait]

Aww. *Hugs*

I have no answers for you; but you have all my best wishes for both you and your kitty.

*More hugs*

[zombieallomorph]

I don't know what to say, I'm just so sorry :(

[picklish]

Poor little brat. Wobbling, not being able to see, and getting stuck in corners sounds like no fun for her.

It always feels so horrible to have to euthanize an animal you love. It's only made worse in that I feel like there's a clear bad point in time to do it where you know you've waited too long, but there's no time earlier where you feel like you're definitively doing the right thing for them.

/me sends hugs to both of you.

[luckykitty]

*huuuugs* I'm so sorry, C.

[gryphynshadow.livejournal.com]

"I don't want to be callous and euthanize her before the con so she doesn't die alone."

That is not callous. You don't want her to die alone. She has days left, and at any point could have that seizure and then be gone. Knowing this, the only humane thing to do is to let her go in peace and love, in your arms.

I made a mistake once. I didn't take my cat to the vet, when I knew he had days left. I say it was a mistake, because to this day when I think of him I remember what his final moments were like, and I regret that I could have prevented that.

I know how hard this is, how much it sucks. You have my deepest sympathies, but I want you to know that it isn't callous, it isn't cruel. It's the very opposite of that. This is choosing to suffer in her place, so that she won't. It's offering up your own heart to be ravaged and destroyed in the name of ending the suffering of one whom you love.

Whatever you choose to do, I know you will move from a place of love for her, concern for her ultimate well being and compassion for her suffering.

~hugs~

[feuervogel]

We're taking her in this afternoon.

[beth_leonard]

**hugs** It is a very hard time when a loved one is dying.

--Beth

[xjenavivex.livejournal.com]

::hugs you tight:: I don't have the answers but I have plenty of empathy

[donaithnen.livejournal.com]

:'( *hugs*

[faithful-summer.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry. *hugs* I think you're making the right choice for her by taking her in today.

[angelamori.livejournal.com]

I am so sorry... *hugs* I saw your post, and I know it was a hard decision. I don't know what to say.... *hugs*

;_;

[icarusfallen8.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry for your loss.
She lived a good life.
I remember meeting her many years ago.
We brought Teya home with a diagnosis that she would last a few days, and she died that night at home. I wish we had let her go easier.
Hug