"I don't want to be callous and euthanize her before the con so she doesn't die alone."
That is not callous. You don't want her to die alone. She has days left, and at any point could have that seizure and then be gone. Knowing this, the only humane thing to do is to let her go in peace and love, in your arms.
I made a mistake once. I didn't take my cat to the vet, when I knew he had days left. I say it was a mistake, because to this day when I think of him I remember what his final moments were like, and I regret that I could have prevented that.
I know how hard this is, how much it sucks. You have my deepest sympathies, but I want you to know that it isn't callous, it isn't cruel. It's the very opposite of that. This is choosing to suffer in her place, so that she won't. It's offering up your own heart to be ravaged and destroyed in the name of ending the suffering of one whom you love.
Whatever you choose to do, I know you will move from a place of love for her, concern for her ultimate well being and compassion for her suffering.
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Date: 2012-06-21 06:42 pm (UTC)From:That is not callous. You don't want her to die alone. She has days left, and at any point could have that seizure and then be gone. Knowing this, the only humane thing to do is to let her go in peace and love, in your arms.
I made a mistake once. I didn't take my cat to the vet, when I knew he had days left. I say it was a mistake, because to this day when I think of him I remember what his final moments were like, and I regret that I could have prevented that.
I know how hard this is, how much it sucks. You have my deepest sympathies, but I want you to know that it isn't callous, it isn't cruel. It's the very opposite of that. This is choosing to suffer in her place, so that she won't. It's offering up your own heart to be ravaged and destroyed in the name of ending the suffering of one whom you love.
Whatever you choose to do, I know you will move from a place of love for her, concern for her ultimate well being and compassion for her suffering.
~hugs~