But the highlight of this concert came in between: the Bruch Violin Concerto, and it wasn’t the highlight just because the estimable Gil Shaham was soloist. I just heard this concerto last month from San Francisco, and the soloist was smooth-toned but rather characterless, while the orchestra was even bland and dull. Not this time. Here we heard why this is one of the most popular concertos in the repertoire. The orchestra was as burstingly robust as they would be in Pictures, and Shaham, though I’ve heard him perform wonders before, was simply amazing, a standing rebuke to plainer soloists. Every note had character, and his mostly high and dry tone varied tremendously, including some of the tenderest soft passages that could still be heard over the orchestra. Thrilling.
But the highlight of this concert came in between: the Bruch Violin Concerto, and it wasn’t the highlight just because the estimable Gil Shaham was soloist. I just heard this concerto last month from San Francisco, and the soloist was smooth-toned but rather characterless, while the orchestra was even bland and dull. Not this time. Here we heard why this is one of the most popular concertos in the repertoire. The orchestra was as burstingly robust as they would be in Pictures, and Shaham, though I’ve heard him perform wonders before, was simply amazing, a standing rebuke to plainer soloists. Every note had character, and his mostly high and dry tone varied tremendously, including some of the tenderest soft passages that could still be heard over the orchestra. Thrilling.
( And be the roots that make the tree. )
The Sunnydale Herald Newsletter, Sunday, February 8
8 Feb 2026 09:36 pm[Drabbles & Short Fiction]

- The Mortician (Spike/Buffy, T) by Tempestt
- mirror, mirror (Faith/Willow, Faith/Buffy, M) by softestbutch
- The Devil’s Carnival (Angelus/Drusilla, M) by Moonzari
- Tales Of The Slayer: A Jest Of Idle Sprites (Original characters, T) by Eliza_hazeleyes
- So Strong So Delicate (Spike/OFC, G) by hpg

- The Mortician (Buffy/Spike, PG-13) by tempestt

- The Mortician (Buffy/Spike, PG-13) by tempestt
[Chaptered Fiction]

- Buffy's Pack, Chapter 20 (multiple ships, E) by red_jacobson
- The Honorable Judge, Chapter 7 (Buffy/Faith, M) by storiwr
- Diary of a Sunnydale High Student, Chapter 3 (Original character, unrated) by SortaMadDog
- Transitory, Chapter 10 (Spike/Buffy, T) by GhostsInLove
- time cast a spell on you (but you won't forget me), Chapter six (Buffy/Riley/Sam Finn, M) by MadeInGold
- ,Love, Loyalty and the Monsters we Choose, Chapter 4 (Angel/Spike/Harry Potter, Harry Potter xover, M) by Potterhead581
- ⛥THE CHRONICLES OF THE SLAYER⛥, Chapter 1 (Original characters, unrated) by TheDarkSorceress666
- Fractured Roads: The End Game, Chapter 2 (Multiple platonic ships, G) by StaarksHeart
- Willow & Buffy, Chapter 4 (Ensemble, M) by Alicerabbit001
- Fresh nights ahead, Chapter 18 (Multiple ships, E) by Red Cowling and they (Redtheseer)
- Season 5, guest starring Angel, Chapter 8 (Angel/Buffy, T) by eg20
- Past and Future Tense, Chapter 5 (Buffy/Giles, M) by Sdhuskerfan
- Control, Chapter 5 (Spike/Buffy, G) by Mariya_Munro
- Stake Me Out to the Ballgame, Chapter 2 (Buffy/Faith, Willow/Tara, M) by storiwr
- The Red Slayer:, Chapter 125 (Multiple Ships, E) by VladimirHarkonnen (TheLightdancer)
- Through The Fire, Together, Chapter 16 (Buffy/Dean Winchester, SPN xover, unrated) by DeathRaeBeam

- Band Candy Baby, Chapter 55 (Buffy/Spike, R) by Tikiriaaa
- (Buffy/Spike, AO) by Sorilkad
- In the Dark, Chapter 11 (Buffy/Spike, AO) by NotYourGrave
- Pick Me Up, Chapter 20 (Buffy/Spike, PG-13) by Dusty

- Once They Were Friends, Chapter 25 (Buffy/Spike, NC-17) by Grief Counseling
- the Eyes, Chapter 28 (Buffy/Spike, NC-17) by Dusty
[Images, Audio & Video]

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- Gifset: BEST OF BTVS: Tara & Willow — Season Four (Willow/Tara, SFW) by clarkgriffon
- Gifset: DAWN SUMMERS in 5.11 TRIANGLE (Dawn, SFW) by 5bi5
- Fanvid: [Willow Fanvid] (Willow, SFW) by homesickarchive
- Moodboard: moodboard: spike x drusilla (Spike/Drusilla, SFW) by kyrt4t
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- Moodboard: [Moodboards] Spike x Illyria x Wesley (Spike/Illyria/Wesely, T) by MadeInGold
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- just finished watching "Forever" by sitcom-muppet

- Quiz I made with 18 different results on which Buffyverse character you are by Bobert858668
- Hell's Bells has the same fun-till-punches-you-in-the-feels vibe as Tabula Rasa by LuVEmFuzzies
- Did Spike really want to get his soul back? by Existing-Worry-97
- Buffy and Spike final scene interpretation by WhenTheStarsLine
- My problem with this scene by jogaforacont
- Cordelia’s fashion on Buffy has me obsessed by kimsooyoung77
The premise of The Everlasting: it's more or less the second-world equivalent of the 1920s and we have just had a Big War. Our protagonist Owen has a radical pacifist alcoholic father that he doesn't respect, a war medal that he didn't really earn, a academic career that doesn't seem to be going places, and a face that makes it pretty obvious that at least one parent came from The Other Side. However, his messy relationship with the war has not in any way altered his ardent passion for the greatest figure of his country's nationalist mythology, the knight Una Everlasting, who fought at the side of the nation's founding queen a thousand years ago and died tragically to bring the country stability.
Then he finds a book that purports to be the True History of Una Everlasting, and gets summoned to a secret meeting with the country's minister of war, an evil girlboss who immediately sends him back in time to experience and document Una Everlasting's Last Quest first hand. He gets to write the nationalist myth himself! What fun!
Alas, it turns out that the great knight Una Everlasting is violent, brutal, and extremely burned out about all the people she's killed as part of the bloody process of nation-forging: at this point the citizens think of her as a butcher and she's inclined to agree. Nonetheless, fanboy Owen convinces her to take on this one last quest for the sake of her honor & kingdom & legacy &cetera, with the promise of peace at the end of it, knowing full well that the end of the quest will in fact mean her death.
This is the first section of the book and tbh I enjoyed it enormously. Owen is writing the narrative in first person and his voice is used to great effect: he's a twisted-up and self-contradictory character who shows the problems of nationalism much better as a guy who's genuinely trying to convince himself that he believes in it than he would if he started out already enlightened. I love his embarrassing radical pacifist dad and his judgmental thesis advisor, and, as heterosexualities go, I am absolutely not immune to the allure of large violent depressed woman/weaselly little worm man whom she could easily break in two who is obsessed with her but also fundamentally betraying her. If the book had ended at the end of its first section, I think it would have been a phenomenal standalone novella.
However, the book does keep going. I continued to have a good time, more or less, but the more it went on the more I felt that it had sort of overplayed its hand. Alix Harrow is extremely a Power of Fiction author in ways that didn't fully work for me in the other book of hers I read; I do appreciate that this book is the Power of Fiction [derogatory] but I still think that perhaps she is giving fiction a little too much power ... For the length of ninety pages I was willing to role with the importance of The Great Nationalist Myth, but the longer it went on and the deeper and more recursive it got with its timeloops the more I was like 'wait .... we only have one founding myth? changing the myth really directly and immediately impacts the future in predictable and manipulable ways and is in fact the only thing that does so? Hmm. Well."
Also I enjoyed the evil girlboss right up until it was revealed that every evil girlboss in the country's whole thousand-year-old history had been the very self-same evil girlboss and no other woman had ever done anything. You are telling me you have built up a whole thing about this country's founding myth of the Queen And Her Lady Knight from scratch and that didn't change the country's relationship to gender at all? NO other woman was ever inspired to do anything with that? I am not sure that's as feminist as you think it is ...
Anyway, I do think this book and The Island In the Silver Sea form a sort of spiritual duology and I'm glad to have read them back to back: for such similar books they have really interestingly different flaws and virtues.
Another 4 inches of snow? And high winds? And "arctic chill"? I cannot.
I am trying the applesauce loaf again, this time with some chunks of "Gold Rush" apples in the batter and making sure not to use lumpy brown sugar. Fingers crossed.
Amtrak's 2FA system is garbage and I may have to contend with Julie, my nemesis (Amtrak's phone customer "service" bot) to get to New York to see Dessa in March (and sneak out of a conference early); my splurge on Restaurant Week was kind of a waste of money (pasta oversalted, rosé weirdly bland); I am sick of all my clothes, no doubt because I have been wearing all of them at the same time for the past month, and the idea of acquiring different clothes is the epitome of exchanging money for bads and disservices.
THIS IS THE BAD PLACE.

So that's pretty great, and we went out and had the prix fixe menu at Tallula to celebrate.
The rest of life? Well, tracking down weirdness keeps leading in unexpected directions.
- Trying to do taxes (which means digging tax forms up from all the websites ever), I noticed that I had some random Zillian stock sitting around from almost a year ago, vested just before I quit. Weird and unintended. Will sell at the end of March.
- Also in the name of taxes, I looked at my dividend income and figured out why my dividend payments all through 2025 had been lower than I expected based on 2024. Answer: one investment account has been flipped to "pay out the dividends" and the other is still on "reinvest dividends".
- The really annoying one was insurance though. I was looking into a problem with my own umbrella insurance. But by enlisting fucking chatbots, I finally figured out that my insurance on the mixed-use mixed-ownership house at Blue-Green Street was wrong! In fact it was not the right kind at all anymore and didn't cover the use we've been putting the place to for more than three years now. So uh, shit! That's a massive chink in my armor, and my squirrel's armor, too. I spent a bunch of time on the phone with Liberty Mutual, and now we all have the right kind of insurance. But it was a huge "yikes" moment to realize that the onus is on us little people to inform the companies about changes we make to a house, or even to how a house is used (like renting out part of it). If you don't, and you get a claim filed against you for something that wasn't covered, they can turn down your claim for "misrepresentation". What a nice thing for the town to have potentially told us when we were getting our ADU approved in 2023, huh? You would think. Yes. You Would Really Think.
So I'm again really sick of Financial Chores and how easy it is to mess up, but my investigative instincts are also fired up because wherever I turn over a rock, I seem to find something to fix that I wasn't even looking for. So now I'm working to better understand the monthly cash flows of my new life -- three little income streams are harder to track than one big one, but I think I can get it down to a monthly checklist.
Athletic stuff has also not been great. Coming back from the rhinovirus is one thing, and single digit temperatures mean that stretching just hurts. We had some great hand-to-hand last week, but today they were gone again, the little jerks.
To end on some fun notes -- I did a cyr wheel taster class with

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The other thing of note this week is finally getting into the dermatologist for the Suspicious Blob on my ear. I forget when I first noticed it, and I'm pretty sure I brought it up to my main doctor several times, but she thought it was just benign. But it's been growing, and then in December it got randomly bleedy, and my audiologist sent a note to my doctor about "a lesion on the ear".
Dermatologist (who is awesome I love her) agreed it looked sus, and chopped it off. (The blob, not the ear.) Top edge of ear is awkward to bandaid, but if you do it right with the right shape bandage you can get an elf ear effect, woo.
Pathology came back as basal cell carcinoma, which I had a spot of on my nose in 2016. BSC is one of the least scary types of cancer: slow moving, easy to treat if you get it early, and nowhere near as scary as melanoma. (And 'treat' is generally just an outpatient surgical procedure, no radiation or chemo.) I'll be having a Mohs surgery in a bit over a month to make sure all the cancer cells got removed, and I'm not really worried.
...except for the bit where I have to get up at at least 6am, eww.
Reading. I have FINISHED Index, A History of the (Dennis Duncan), including both indexes, including The Games Therein, and had a Great time.
Started (just now) The Rose Field, volume three of The Book of Dust (Philip Pullman). ( Grousing; vague spoilers for vol 2 )
so as I say I'm not hugely hopeful for this, but hey, maybe I'm being unfair to it.Writing. Did you know that getting knowledge out of your own head and into other people's is a specific set of skills that has very little to do with how well you know the things you're trying to communicate? TRY TO LOOK SHOCKED, PLEASE. (6.3k words, and am absolutely in an Iterative Cycle of trying to make the introduction more-or-less work. It is progressing, just... very slowly.)
Listening. I realised that Hidden Almanac was possibly in fact exactly a useful sort of thing to listen to while Wrangling Laundry, and have therefore started again from the beginning, at least in part as an attempt to actually listen to some of the episodes I dozed through while they were playing in the car...
Playing. Incomplete White Puzzle progresses. (Today I have added I think three pieces to the contiguous section, two of which I had already joined to each other as a free-foating lump, and made another couple of free-floating lump connections.)
I think we also did a bit more Inkulinati before I got horrendously distracted by Puzzle. And the sudoku fixation continues, though it is at least ramping down a little.
Cooking. I have been having A Rough Week brain-wise, but I have today managed to make some bread, and I did earlier in the week gently fry up some celery and garlic to add to the mashed potato & parsnip that we were having with Vegetables and Veg Sossij. I think that is about the extent of it.
Eating. VEGETABLES, including a couple of peppers from an overwintered plant. (Restricted diet for a week up until the Tuesday just gone, so the return of Fibre was Extremely Welcome.) Favourite chocolate stars with raspberries. Fruit With Skin On. Lebkuchen. Stollen. Seeds and nuts.
Growing. I think the nematodes (applied as a split dose a few days apart) have dealt? at least temporarily? with the sodding Sciarid Flies? for now?
Lemongrass needs pricking out. Physalis are showing zero indication that they have any intention of germinating, which is mildly annoying. There are still three not-dead Lithops seedlings, though I doubt they're the same three as last week. Orchids getting increasingly enthusiastic about their plans to flower.
Have not managed to get anything else sown, yet.
Observing. Lots of bulbs: daffodils and crocuses various and snowdrops are Definitely Underway, at this point. We are fairly convinced that the Yelling from the garden around dusk is Amorous Foxes, though we have not (yet?) bestirred ourselves to ask the internet if what we think we're hearing is in fact what we're hearing...
In the next couple of entries I'll be looking at the children of the first Weeden Butler (1742-1823). Of the four that grew to adulthood, we've already met two: Weeden II (1772-1831), whose children's letters occupied the last few family entries and who took over the Chelsea school in 1814 on his father's retirement; and his high-achieving brother George (1774-1853), who was Senior Wrangler at Cambridge, Headmaster of Harrow, Dean of Peterborough, and became the patriarch of a whole dynasty of academics, lawyers and politicians culminating in Rab Butler.
They had a younger brother, John, who lived less than 18 months, and then two more siblings: Charles (1777-1814) and Harriot (1779-1846). It's about these youngest two that I want to write, for each, in their own way, holds a mystery. In Charles's case the mystery is public, and surrounds the circumstances of his death, when the East Indiaman "William Pitt" (of which he was master) was lost with all hands off the coast of Algoa Bay in the Eastern Cape. I've long known of this tragedy as a bald fact, but now I have the letters and speculations that surrounded the event. There's a lot, and it will take some time to get it into a state that can be usefully summarised. But I promise I'll get there, and that it will be worth it.
For now, let's turn to Harriot, whose mystery is more private. I have no letters from her, nor picture neither, just references to her by a series of other authors - references that leave enough gaps to allow for multiple interpretations. Perhaps it's best to lay out the evidence first - which may be supplemented as I work through the many letters, etc., now in my possession.
Some early references to Harriot come from the letters of Pierce Butler (no relation) the American senator and Founding Father, whose son Thomas was attending Weeden I's school at the time. In August 1787, he takes a few minutes away from attending the Constitutional Convention to praise the eight-year-old Harriot's progress in writing: "The rapid progress she has made is amazing, and must give great delight to her good parents." Another letter, sent when Harriot is 14, makes reference to a serious illness, without specifying its nature.
So far, so standard. However, in April 1803, the month after their mother's death, Charles records in a letter to his elder brother Weeden II a disturbing incident, witnessed by his bride-to-be Fanny in the Cheyne Walk house:
Today I had the Pleasure of seeing our dearest, only Parent now left on earth, & found him, as well as Harriet & Fanch [?] quite well. Poor dear Henny [Harriot] however on Tuesday went off in a very strong hysterical fit, when coming down stairs & alarm’d my father who was coming with her extremely. You may judge of Fanny’s situation, who told me she felt even more apprehensive for my father, who had become as white as a sheet, knowing that Harriet would shortly come too [sic], but fearful lest the shock might have overcome him! When at Chelsea I did not hear a word of this from my Father & did not wish to recal [sic] the memory of it to him. They talk of Henny’s going away for a short Time, till her Spirits get stronger & I think, if she could get to Mrs Yeo’s [?] Clifton, the Jaunt & Residence there would be a delightful thing for her. Our dear Father, was apparently perfectly composed and cheerful, but had, perceptibly, suffered much. He could not sleep after the surprise. Miss S. Giberne had been out in the morning in Chelsea & I conjecture the similarity of situation, tho’ at a distant Period, had worked upon Harriet’s mind, naturally very susceptible & now with too just a cause rendered almost helpless. She however was quite compose’d yesterday & had had Miss Slater with her all the morning. I was extremely hurt at the account, as the last letter I had receiv’d mention’d that every thing was going on so very well.

(Clifton, then near rather than part of, Bristol, was at this time a spa town, a rival to the longer-established Hotwells at the bottom of the hill.)
Harriot was sufficiently recovered to be a witness at Charles and Fanny's wedding the following year, in any case. The next glimpse of her is on 10 January 1822, also in a letter to Weeden II. This time the writer is his other brother, George, who has just seen her in Clifton. The immediate context is that their father, the elder Weeden, is to turn 80 later that year and has been drafting some changes to his will. That's a story I may return to on another occasion, but what concerns us here is the plan for Harriot's inheritance, which Weeden has decided to put into the hands of trustees - an idea George heartily approves of.
To Harriet £500, “in the hands of Trustees;” this trust seems to be very essential in her case. For I regret to say, that her conduct at Clifton has of late been more extravagant than heretofore: she has now quitted Mrs Scriven, & is under the same roof with my father, waiting there until some satisfactory arrangement can be made for her separate maintenance.
Harriot also pops up in the letters between Weeden II's children, if somewhat tantalisingly. On 23rd February 1824, by which time the elder Weeden was six months dead and Harriot had presumably come into her trustee-managed inheritance, sixteen-year-old Anne writes to Weeden III:
One thing, which I think you will be surprised to hear, is that Aunt Harriet is coming to stay a few days with us at Chelsea soon. I am not quite sure of this yet, and therefore do not mention that I have told you, as I may be thought medling [sic]. If I hear any more about it I will tell you in my next letter.
When I first read this, I wondered why an aunt coming to stay should be surprising news or require such diplomacy.
Finally, Annie Robina Butler, the daughter of Anne and Weeden's brother Tom, wrote in her 1907 biography of her father that when he was living in Cheyne Walk in the 1840s and having to provide for a growing family on a small salary, one of his responsibilities was the care of an "invalid aunt." This was of course Harriot, who spent the last few years of her life in the house where she was born, dying there in 1846.
Annie Robina would have been just five at the time of Harriot's death, so although she lived in the same house for several years her memory of her aunt, and of the nature of her invalidism, would probably have been a little hazy - nor would she necessarily have wished to share it with her child readers. Was it physical? Mental? Both?
Harriot passes elusively through these various pieces of evidence. The reading of least resistance is that she suffered from what her contemporary Jane Austen might have seen as an excess of sensibility, leading to a degree of mental instability. That seems strongly implied by Charles's letter in particular, and confirmed in George's - although the latter is ambiguous as to the form of Harriet's "extravagance": is he referring to her use of money, as the financial context might suggest, or also to her behaviour? She doesn't appear to have been confined to anything as hardcore as an asylum, but I wonder what the Clifton regimes of Mrs Yeo or Mrs Scriven were like - were they normal lodging houses or something more like sanatoria?
Again, was Harriot's condition (whatever it was) with her from the beginning, or was it triggered - or at least worsened - by some kind of traumatic event? Charles's suggestion that "the similarity of situation, tho’ at a distant Period, had worked upon Harriet’s mind", suggests something of the kind. At first I thought that it must be a reference to their mother's death. Perhaps "Miss S. Giberne" (probably Sally Sophia Giberne, an older cousin born in 1764) reminded Harriot of their mother, who had been a Giberne herself? But their mother's death had occured just a few weeks earlier, not at a "distant Period".
Armchair diagnosis is a mug's game, but it's also the only game in town, apart from minding one's own business - which is of course unthinkable.
What I thought/feared: because The Night Manager had been such a success, they'd simply go for the (unnecessary) repeat sequel formula, with Jonathan Pine motivated by personal loss and vengeance (again), and the two new characters, arms dealer Teddy Santos, as a Richard Roper copy, and the sole woman focused on in the trailer, Roxana, in the role of beautiful girlfriend of the villain falling in love with our hero. This turned out not to be the case, though the first episode seemed to indicate it would be, with just enough differences to make it entertaining. Then more episodes happened, and I sat up and thought: Oh. Oh. That....is actually a really clever twist on the formula. Or several. But also, come episode 3, the first of the two things happened. And, well, I can't talk about this without spoilers....
( Spoilers think that if the original version was more optimistic than Le Carré's novel, this sequel decided to go all in with the cynism (though not nihilism) )
Pairings/Characters: John Sheppard/Rodney McKay
Rating: Mature
Length: wc 5541
Content Notes No AO3 warning apply
Creator Links: AO3 profile
Theme: Inept in Love
Summary: "We had a fight and he dumped me." Foofy humor.
Reccer's Notes This is a funny and delightful gem that just goes to show you that even when in an established relationship, John and Rodney (esp John) are horribly inept in love.
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Due date: February 21 2026 23:59 (GMT-3)
We have 7 Initial Pinch Hits looking for a loving home. The deadline for all of these Pinch Hits is Feb 21st 2026 23:59 (GMT-3).
PH 1 - I Was a Teenage Exocolonist (Video Game), Pocket Monsters | Pokemon (Main Video Game Series)
PH 2 - Crossover Fandom, Ace Attorney, Layton Kyouju Series | Professor Layton Series, Mumintroll | Moomins Series - Tove Jansson, Persona 4, Persona 5
PH 3 - The Starving Saints - Caitlin Starling, Watashi o Tabetai Hitodenashi | A Monster Wants to Eat Me (Manga), The Locked Tomb Series | Gideon the Ninth Series - Tamsyn Muir
PH 4 - Jujutsu Kaisen (Anime & Manga), Haikyuu!!, Love and Deepspace (Video Game), Link Click (Cartoon)
PH 5 - KPop Demon Hunters (2025), Star Wars - All Media Types, Star Trek: The Next Generation, Marvel Cinematic Universe, Pocket Monsters | Pokemon (Main Video Game Series), Our Flag Means Death (TV)
PH 6 - Candela Obscura (Critical Role Web Series), Critical Role: Exandria (Web Series), Dimension 20 (Web Series), Dragon Age - All Media Types, Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling, Hazbin Hotel (Cartoon), Hogwarts Legacy (Video Game), Magic and Romance - Sara Raasch
PH 7 - Mission: Impossible (Movies)

An assortment of (mostly) SF from just before Asimov's Sputnik-inspired hiatus from SF.
Nine Tomorrows by Isaac Asimov
Some pretty photos of the sunset shadows and mountains taken on the edge of town today yesterday (as always, wishing I had a DSLR camera so that you could actually tell that the mountains are very large and close up and that the distant high-rises in the last one are much closer than they appear...but, anyway, iPhone is certainly doing lovely things with the colors). I especially loved how you could see the discrete tree shadows looking in the direction of the sun, visible in the first one.
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Walked about 6.2 miles round trip for these, which is the longest I've managed since injury in summer 2024; parts of my ankles were very very unhappy about the 300ft elevation gain, had to walk backwards periodically as usual, gah. (Nor were they very happy about the way back down.) Also I noticed while on this walk that the 55+ neighborhood has solar panels on every house, which is pretty cool; I didn't know this was a thing anywhere in this state.
audio: Eels, "I Like Birds"
length: 2:31
download: 306MB on MediaFire
summary: Christian Cooper likes birds.
AO3 page | YouTube link
Lyrics on AZ Lyrics
Back when Mr B and I started doing joint grocery orders, I started analyzing our budget like you do. In the course of doing so, I discovered something I hadn't realized: about a third of my "grocery" budget wasn't food. It was:
• Disposable food handling and storage supplies: plastic wrap, paper towels, aluminum foil, ziplocs, e.g.
• Personal hygiene supplies: toilet paper, bath soap, shampoo, skin lotion, menstrual supplies, toothpaste, mouthwash, Q-tips, e.g.
• Health supplies: vitamins, bandaids, NSAIDs, first aid supplies, OTC medications and supplements, e.g.
• Domestic hygiene supplies: dish detergent, dish soap, dish sponges, Windex, Pine-sol, laundry detergent, bleach, mouse traps, e.g.
None of these things individually needs to be bought every grocery trip, but that's good, because they can add up fast. Especially if you try to buy at all in volume to try to drive unit costs down. But the problem is there are so many of them, that usually you need some of them on every order.
This fact is in the back of my head whenever I hear politicians or economists or social commentators talk about the "cost of groceries": I don't know if they mean just food or the whole cost of groceries. Sometimes it's obvious. An awful lot of the relief for the poor involves giving them food (such as at a food pantry) or the funds to buy it (such as an EBT card), but very explicitly doesn't include, say, a bottle of aspirin or a box of tampons or a roll of Saran wrap. Other times, it's not, such as when a report on the cost of "groceries" only compares the prices of food items, and then makes statements about the average totals families of various sizes spend on "groceries": if they only looked at the prices of foods, does that mean they added up the prices of foods a family typically buys to generate a "grocery bill" which doesn't include the non-food groceries, or did they survey actual families' actual grocery bills and just average them without substracting the non-food groceries? Hard to say from the outside.
When we see a talking head on TV – a pundit or a politician – talking about the price of "groceries" but then say it, for example, has to do with farm labor, or the import of agricultural goods, should we assume they're just meaning "food" by the term "groceries"? Or it is a tell they've forgotten that not everything bought at a grocery store (and part of a consumer's grocery store bill) is food, and maybe are misrepresenting or misunderstanding whatever research they are leaning on? Or is it a common misconception among those who research domestic economics that groceries means exclusively food?
So my question is: given that a lot of information about this topic that percolates out to the public is based on research that the public never sees for themselves, what assumptions are reasonable for the public to make about how the field(s) which concern themselves with the "price of groceries" mean "groceries"? What fields are those and do they have a standard meaning of "groceries" and does it or does it not include non-food items?
This question brought to you by yet another video about the cost of groceries and how they might be controlled in which the index examples were the ingredients for a peanut butter and jelly sandwich, but, as usual, not the sandwich baggy to put it in to take to school or work.
I also added them to my Sholio Vids collection.
Some random notes on this year's vidding under the cut.
( Talking a lot about Babylon 5 )
It's cold enough in my apartment for socks and a bathrobe, and I've now broken out the fingerless gloves. If I had the space in my freezer for the loaves, I'd make bread as a reason to turn on the oven, and as I don't, I'm having to make do with hot tea.
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audio: Hans Zimmer, "Drink Up Me Hearties"
length: 4:34
download: 549MB on MediaFire
summary: What's lost can be found…in Neverland.
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At some point in proceedings (depression? pain? migraine? dense technical text for the PhD? poetry?), I realise, I have gone from reading Unusually Quickly to still reading More? Than Population Norm? (75ish books last year, of which 15ish were graphic novels or otherwise not-a-novel's-worth-of-words), but no faster than I'd be able to read the text aloud -- "hearing" each word in my head, and often rereading sentences repeatedly.
This is in contrast to how I type, which is much faster than I can speak comprehensibly (... though I now recall that I am in fact often asked to Slow The Fuck Down when providing information verbally).
I have over the last little bit been tentatively experimenting with trying not to read each word "aloud", mentally, and instead treating The Written Word as something that doesn't always need to be (pseudo-)vocalised.
It feels weird. It's an active effort. I am extremely dubious about the impact on how much information I retain; Further Study Required. I think this is probably how I used to read (when?); I'm not sure what changed; I'm unsettled.
(And I want to post something to Dreamwidth before bed, and this is a thing I was thinking about a lot while almost-but-not-quite finishing Index, A History of the -- I'm at a point I'd ordinarily count as "finished" but obviously it is in this instance both important and rewarding to read the index, all two of it, so here y'go.)
Extra! Extra! Extra (6 words) by seekingferret
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: The Paper (TV 2025)
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Mare Pritti/Ned Sampson
Additional Tags: Fanvids, Instrumental
Summary:
Misadventures in the fourth estate
I don't have much to say about this year's Festivid. I like how it came out, but it's also very much the kind of vid when you sign up for Festivids and then almost immediately buy a house and just need to make some kind of vid.
Has anyone watched The Paper? It's one of those sitcoms whose first seasons make you think, well maybe this is promising. Some of those shows get more time and figure things out, most of them just get cancelled before they can figure those things out. Its connection to The Office is mostly a funny running gag that the accountant Oscar has not escaped the documentary crew from the Office as they make a new doc about a newspaper. But I liked the idea of making a show about the futility of trying to make a useful local newspaper in the year 2025. It's delightfully quixotic, and so as much as this is a ship vid I also wanted to make a vid celebrating that noble ambition of making the community better by giving people better information, waging war against the avalanche of slop.
Sigh.
I gave up on today and just ordered pizza, and I think tomorrow I will pivot to mac and cheese because I have all the ingredients for that without having to do a second grocery delivery.
This afternoon, I baked an apple-cranberry crumble since I had 2 apples I hadn't eaten yet and all those cranberries hanging around. Instead of walnuts, I used pecans and instead of raisins I used chocolate chips, and I used maple sugar over the fruit instead of regular, and it smells fantastic. I can't wait to cut into it. I might need to make some whipped cream to eat with it.
The wind is whipping around like crazy and it's supposed to be super extra cold tomorrow, so I hope everyone is safe and warm, wherever you are.
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The Sunnydale Herald Newsletter, Saturday, February 7
7 Feb 2026 10:51 pmBUFFY: Vampire issues. Did Mr. Whitmore notice I was tardy?
XANDER: I think the word you're searching for is 'absent'.
WILLOW: Tardy people show.
BUFFY: Right.
WILLOW: And, yes, he did notice, so he wanted me to give you this. (hands her an egg)
BUFFY: As far as punishments go this is fairly abstract.
WILLOW: No, it's your baby!
BUFFY: Okay, I get it even less.
[Drabbles & Short Fiction]

- Come to Pass (Spike, T) by aadler

- You Tear Down My Reason (Buffy/Xander, E) by evesock
- Dinner With the Enemy (Buffy/Ben, E) by flipflop_diva
- Box of Tricks (Warren/Andrew, E) by Mishafer
- Warren the Femboy Hunter (Warren/Andrew, E) by GarsCrucible
- The Jonathan Levinson Fanclub (Warren/Andrew, E) by Christonerd

- all I see is you (Spike/fem!reader, not rated) by brunettemarionette

- Evil (Buffy/Spike, G) by flootzavut

- Evil (Buffy/Spike, G) by flootzavut
[Chaptered Fiction]

- Shadowed Suspicion Chapter 412 (jojo's bizarre adventure xover, T) by madimpossibledreamer

- Harry Potter and the Sunnydale Witches, Chapter 6/? (Willow/Tara, T, Harry Potter xover) by storiwr
- The Honorable Judge, Chapter 6/? (Faith/Buffy, M) by storiwr
- Faiths Vampire Family, Chapter 4/? (Faith & Hope Mikaelson, The Originals xover, not rated) by mwimer
- A Hundred Years of Spike, Chapter 19/? (Buffy/Spike, Angelus/Darla/Drusilla/Spike, multiple ships, M) by voidslayerworks98
- [Spanish] Un lugar encantador, Chapter 7/10 (Buffy/Giles, not rated) by Ligeia_fiambrera
- Windows to the Soul (Fix Her Eventually Section 6, S3E18), Chapter 7/11 (Buffy/Faith, E) by BTVSFE
- it’s actually romantic, i really gotta hand it to you (no man has ever loved me like you do), Chapter 4/? (Buffy/Faith, T) by esquegoth

- Band Candy Baby, Chapter 54 (Buffy/Spike, R) by Tikiriaaa
- What's Left of the Night, Chapter 6 (Buffy/Spike, NC-17) by Sirabella
- Staked through the heart (and you're to blame), Chapter 1 (Buffy/Spike, NC-17) by Ninereeds
- The Backup Backup., Chapter 6 (Buffy/Spike, R) by All4Spike
- Pick Me Up, Chapter 19 (Buffy/Spike, PG-13) by Dusty
- From Hell, With Love, Chapter 5 (Buffy/Spike, NC-17) by Melme1325
- A glimpse in the night, Chapter 4 (Buffy/Spike, PG-13) by Sarahvampgrl
- Father, Lead Us Not Into Temptation, Chapter 11 (Buffy/Spike, PG-13) by YouCutYourHair

- Dark Gift, Chapter 12 (Buffy/Spike, NC-17) by Davidf89
- What's Left of the Night, Chapter 6 (Buffy/Spike, NC-17) by Sirabella
- A Time to Every Purpose, Chapter 3 (Buffy/Spike, NC-17) by Joan963z
[Images, Audio & Video]

- Artwork: Poor Andrew! (mostly worksafe) by garscrucible
- Gifset: btvs | the pack (ensemble, worksafe) by lovebvffys
- Artwork: The willow and Giles reunion we need in season 6 (worksafe) by nothing-special-i-guess
- Text posts: JENNYPOSTING AGAIN AT LONG LAST !!!!!!! (Jenny Calendar, Giles, worksafe) by ihavenoconsistentinterests
- Gifset: BTVS 2.06 / ATS 4.06 (parallels, worksafe) by lesbvffy
- Artwork: Prophecy Girl (Buffy, worksafe) by paunchjournal
- Gifset: Eliza Dushku as Faith Lehane in Buffy the Vampire Slayer season 7 episode 18 “Dirty Girls” (2003) (worksafe) by blooddebt
- Fanvid: Lilah Morgan | ‘if you’re going to go, then go hard’ (worksafe) by welcometocaritas

- Artwork: [art] Rescue Mission (Drusilla/Spike, T) by evesock
[Reviews & Recaps]

- Thoughts on Rewatching S2E15, “Phases” (1/X): Remember, you’re just a meek little by btvsfemslashenjoyer
- angel s1e1 “city of angels” by foolstrap

- 'Choices' Buffy the Vampire Slayer 3x19 reaction/commentary by All Bronze, No Brains
- 71: Angel S1E19 “Sanctuary” by Still Slaying: A Buffyverse Podcast
- Rewatch: Bad Eggs Part 1 by Re-Vamped with Juliet Landau

- First time watching S3E12... why does anyone even listen to the council? by Frequent-Beautiful49
- Series Finale by ConsiderationSea941

- PODCAST: It Eats You Starting With Your Bottom (BtVS S7E7) by It Stakes Two
[Community Announcements]

- Welcome to Day Seven of February Fangfest! Up next we present, Rescue Mission by Evesock. A piece of Sprusilla fanart by februaryfangfest

- Event: Short and Spuffy 2026 by SADmins
[Fandom Discussions]

- i feel like molotovs would be a pretty good way to kill vampires and somewhat safe too by starlight-fires
- i just watched this scene for the first time and omg i’m actually SICK by esquegoth
- WHERE did the idea that buffy cares about who she considers bad people dying come from by camellcat
- why is buffy season 7 so boring and irritating? by lesbianmarrow
- we talk a lot about how Spike went and got a soul for Buffy which is of course true, but I think it often gets glossed over that he just as much did it for himself by dawnmist-sky
- Still think Spike should have got his chip removed by that demon by trashcanalienist
- ok sorry im mid s6 and i dont understand why im supposed to like spike and spike/buffy by 70slesbian
- How can people still hate Buffy season 6 in the big 2026 by stardewfalls

- If they don't do these things in the new series, it would be a missed opportunity: by raisondecalcul
- Was the joke about Willows sexuality in Dopplegang land intentional? by Sure_Advertising3222
- Did Joyce know Willow was lesbian or bi? by NoChampion4463
- Even though Buffybot was created for all the wrong reasons, I still found it delightful. Thoughts? by Tigs_dad
- Alright, does anyone else imagine what Buffy characters would look like "in real life"? by IllTitle9692
- If you had to pick another actress for Buffy other than Sarah Michelle Gellar, who would it be and why? by spiritzlifted
- How did Angel actually see Buffy in terms of maturity? by jogaforacont
- Why do the Potential Slayers Suck? by Perfect-Asparagus93
- [Sequel] What smaller details would you like to be brought back in the revival? by Buffyfan1991
- What if Buffy had an animated episode in season 7? by AssociationTiny5395
- Why didn't Anya get back into magic again after becoming human in S3? by GreyStagg
- Could I get some clarification [origin of Dawn] by Sure_Advertising3222
A couple of weeks ago we got a massive amount of snow and it hasn't really gotten above freezing since, so we still have a massive amount of snow. The kids got two whole snow days out of it and they're using "by the time the snow melts" as a timeline for their current computer gaming goal (getting into space in Factorio). I am enjoying the snow a little less (my boots have holes. Any recs for not-too-expensive snow boots for wide feet?)
I mentioned before that I had picked up the Guardian drama again, well, I convinced Jeff to watch it with me (apparently "it's a bit cheesy and kind of reminds me of early seasons of BTVS" was a convincing rec) so we re-started from the beginning. Forgot to mention it was based on a danmei but he figured that out for himself at episode 8. We're now up to episode 12 which is *almost* where I left off.

But today we're talking about Blockout. It's 3D Tetris. Instead of a side view, you're looking down into a well into which you must drop the wireframe pieces. In addition to using the arrow keys to move the pieces, you also get six rotation keys (clockwise and counterclockwise around three different axes of rotation). The rest of the gameplay is just as you'd expect; if you manage to fill a layer of the well, that layer disappears like a Tetris row, etc.
( I did have the DOS version of this game as a kid, but what I mainly remember is watching my mom play it. )
Blockout is free to download or play in your browser if you want to find out if your spatial reasoning abilities are more like mine or more like my mom's.
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Our friendship was not much about serious mythopoeic literature, but centered on politics in which we were both interested, him professionally as an elections supervisor. Lee also enticed me, and later B., to attend the Oz conventions which were a regular part of his schedule. For many years they were held annually at Asilomar near here. Lee and Dolores, whom he had delightfully married, would fly from LA to San Jose or Monterey and I would pick them up. We’d have dinner at Fisherman’s Wharf in Monterey and then proceed to the conference center. I also visited them regularly whenever I ventured south. Neither of them drove, not as much of a rarity in Angelinos as you might think, but having a driver at his disposal didn’t alter Lee’s invariable preference for eating at the same burger/pasta/salad place a block from their apartment, where he was an esteemed regular.
As he was also in the Mythopoeic Society, where he handled back issue orders for many years and spent Mythcons mostly sitting behind the Society sales table. I shall miss his acute intelligence and occasional wicked sense of humor.
Worldbuilding Exchange will not be running in 2026
7 Feb 2026 09:23 amWhile we won't rule out running another round in the future, at the moment we are not planning to do so. Anybody interested in running a Worldbuilding Exchange v.3 is welcome to pick up the baton! (And if you do so this year, please let us know, and we'll spread the word.)
Apologies, especially to those we had told we were going to run again this year.

With two books new to me, this just barely qualifies as books received. One SF, one fantasy and the SF novel is from a series.
Books Received, January 31 — February 6
Which of these look interesting?
A City Dreaming by Maurice Broaddus (June 2026)
12 (38.7%)
Lord of the Heights by Scarlett J. Thorne (July 2026
5 (16.1%)
Some other option (see comments)
1 (3.2%)
Cats!
25 (80.6%)
Guess which one I've now got 1500 words of?
*sigh*
The word "fuck" has been coming up in my online conversations quite a bit today, mostly coupled with "you". She's an utter menace.
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The story of a mother and son during Stalin’s Terror of the mid 1930s. Short, well-written, and chilling. And yet, as good as it is, it reminded me of Yevgenia Ginzburg’s memoir Journey Into the Whirlwind which covers the same story and is, I think, absolutely brilliant. Ginsburg’s work is actually two volumes: the first (if my memory is correct) covers the period up through her arrest and trial and the second volume (Within the Whirlwind) covers her nearly two decades of imprisonment (at the infamous Kolyma gulag) and her release. At one time, I read many memoirs of the Kolyma and the gulag more generally and, excellent as many of them were, Ginzburg’s stood out. Both the real Ginzburg and the fictional Sofia Petrovna are faithful and loyal Party members and their devotion and dedication are meaningless. The only observation that I think is even possible is that the word “terrifying” or “chilling” is drastically inadequate to describe that period and that regime. Sofia Petrovna nevertheless gives a good sense of the claustrophobia of those years and the effect of the terror on “ordinary people” and is well worth the time.
novella is a compelling portrait of the personal costs of Stalin's purges. The eponymous heroine is a faithful Soviet citizen who believes in the fairness and ultimate justice of the system and her country's leaders. When her son is arrested in a purge, her belief in her country and her belief in her son come into conflict. The disconnect between lofty Soviet ideals and the injustice of her reality ultimately drive her mad. The novella focuses on how political shifts had deeply personal costs for Soviet citizens. Its strengths are its portrayal of how public life influences private life and its description of the bewilderment of loyal citizens suddenly confronted with the deep unfairness of the purges.
Gripping.




