We're losing her.

[feuervogel]

This morning, I noticed that Isis' pupils were different sizes, so I called the vet, and they worked her in. It's probably a brain tumor. The vet suggested humane euthanasia, because she has "days" left. I was there by myself, so I asked if we could wait. He gave her a steroid shot, and now I'm home. Ben's coming home soon.

She's had trouble eating the last few days, and she's wobblier than before, despite glucosamine supplements (which helped for a few days, but she got worse again). She can't see very well, she gets stuck in corners, and she misses the litter box a lot.

We won't be home from tomorrow morning until Sunday evening. Right now, she seems happy enough, talking some, walking around and stuff. I took her outside, and she found some grass and ate it. But she could have a seizure any time. I don't want her to die when I'm not around. I don't want to be callous and euthanize her before the con so she doesn't die alone. I don't know what to do.

I'm not ready for this.

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[picklish]

Poor little brat. Wobbling, not being able to see, and getting stuck in corners sounds like no fun for her.

It always feels so horrible to have to euthanize an animal you love. It's only made worse in that I feel like there's a clear bad point in time to do it where you know you've waited too long, but there's no time earlier where you feel like you're definitively doing the right thing for them.

/me sends hugs to both of you.