Fuck.

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So, according to a comment on someone else's f-locked post, the age I'm going to be in 10 years, once we have few or no cats and a smaller principle on our mortgage, that is, 45, is considered "too old" to get a job in Germany, really really.

Fuck my life, fuck me, and fuck that bullshit.

I'm never going to get to move to Berlin if neither Ben (who will ALSO be 45, and a 20-year-experienced software engineer) nor I will be able to get jobs to support ourselves.

I was happy until about 10 minutes ago when I read that comment notification. Now I want to curl up and cry a lot.

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I'd forgotten, too, actually! I was just reading through tags, and I said, oh right, there's this comment...

I wonder, would freelance translation work count as a current job? (I'm trying to figure out jobs I could do with a PhD in Germanistik that don't involve moving, and academia isn't one of them... I mean, moving to somewhere in the US only to move again a few years later when Berlin happens? No thanks :S Moving sucks.)

zombieallomorph suggested on facebook that it would be hard to get a job in academia over there, since there's no lack of Germanistik majors. (He suggested DAAD or the Goethe Institut.) But translation, or, hell, teaching English (or German) at a VHS or IDK. Something. (And since I'm a writer, I have a selling point for fiction translation, because I can make stylistic choices.) I wouldn't mind teaching at a GI, but I don't know how often they hire or what the criteria are. There are a few in the US, but not here; the closest are in DC or Atlanta.

Gah I don't know what I want to do with my life. It is a silver lining, though, because Ben's got a master's in computer science and (currently) 12.5 years experience coding 3D modeling software. He's presumably staying at this job for a good long time.