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Sick with worry
14 Dec 2010 08:00 pmI picked Claire up today after her ultrasound. They didn't tell me any results, and since it was mysteriously not on my bill, I don't know if they took any biopsies or not.
She's having trouble eating. She has an appetite, but she can't chew, and there may be an indigestion component as well. When she eats kibble, she sort of swallows it whole, and when she eats wet food, she tries to swallow it whole, but it gets stuck on her teeth, which are very much in need of cleaning.
Her needing a dental is what got this whole mess started.
She's lost about a pound since her last weight, which I think was the middle of November. She hasn't been eating much.
If it's lymphoma, and it's metastatic from her GI to the kidneys, I can't imagine the prognosis being very good. I don't want to think about giving the most neurotic cat we have chemotherapy, chasing her around the house trying to catch her and force her to take pills. It would make her miserable, and it would make us miserable.
If it's aggressive, and she keeps not eating, I don't know if we'll be able to make it up to Maryland this weekend to visit my family. I don't want to miss her last days. (I also don't know if the cat sitter is willing or has enough time to feed her dry food a few pieces at a time on the floor while somehow keeping the other cats away.
Oh god, this isn't going to work at all, is it? It'll be 6 meals, total, and she's neurotic as hell, and she's not taking her clomipramine, which is making it worse, and I don't want to think about taking her in the car to my mom's, then finding something to do with her while at my aunt & uncle's for (midday) dinner Sunday, then I guess at my sister's Sunday night.
There are a lot of ifs up there, I know, but without the information, all I can do is plan for the worst. And I don't think we're going to get another reprieve like with Isis earlier this year.
And I can't stop crying.
She's having trouble eating. She has an appetite, but she can't chew, and there may be an indigestion component as well. When she eats kibble, she sort of swallows it whole, and when she eats wet food, she tries to swallow it whole, but it gets stuck on her teeth, which are very much in need of cleaning.
Her needing a dental is what got this whole mess started.
She's lost about a pound since her last weight, which I think was the middle of November. She hasn't been eating much.
If it's lymphoma, and it's metastatic from her GI to the kidneys, I can't imagine the prognosis being very good. I don't want to think about giving the most neurotic cat we have chemotherapy, chasing her around the house trying to catch her and force her to take pills. It would make her miserable, and it would make us miserable.
If it's aggressive, and she keeps not eating, I don't know if we'll be able to make it up to Maryland this weekend to visit my family. I don't want to miss her last days. (I also don't know if the cat sitter is willing or has enough time to feed her dry food a few pieces at a time on the floor while somehow keeping the other cats away.
Oh god, this isn't going to work at all, is it? It'll be 6 meals, total, and she's neurotic as hell, and she's not taking her clomipramine, which is making it worse, and I don't want to think about taking her in the car to my mom's, then finding something to do with her while at my aunt & uncle's for (midday) dinner Sunday, then I guess at my sister's Sunday night.
There are a lot of ifs up there, I know, but without the information, all I can do is plan for the worst. And I don't think we're going to get another reprieve like with Isis earlier this year.
And I can't stop crying.
