Can't sleep if I can't stop crying.

[feuervogel]

Talked to Ben, who's up at Newport News for work. Have pretty much been crying the last 45 minutes, sometimes hard enough to make me want to puke.

A quick google tells me the prognosis isn't good: 70% of cats get 4-6 months with therapy. 30% get up to 2 years.

I have no idea how this is going to affect our travel plans, which are in ... 3-4 months from now. I haven't paid for the class yet, but we've got our plane tickets. I'd be gone May 2-June 13. And I'd regret it forever if she died while I was gallivanting in Europe and I couldn't see her one last time before she's (crying again) gone forever.

She seems so happy! Diabetes I could live with; treatment is annoying but manageable. Since we got her sugars down, she's been frisky and lovey and PLAYING like she hasn't in months. How can she be dying? (crying more)

I wish I could talk to the vet now, because not knowing makes it so much harder. I also wish Ben hadn't had to go to Virginia for work today, and I know he does, too. Even if we'd just be sitting together and bawling; we'd have each other. The cats have no idea why Mommy's making that weird sound and holding onto Isis for dear life.

Comments

[gchick]

Oh NO -- I'm so sorry.

[sabeth]

I'm really sorry. :(

[donaithnen.livejournal.com]

*hugs* :'(

[listener.livejournal.com]

Oh no. I'm so, so sorry. *hug*

[anacoluthon.livejournal.com]

=( Poor baby. I'm so sorry to hear that.


If you want some distraction this weekend, Nolan's doing Game Jam so I'm free Friday/Saturday night and Sunday during the day. I completely understand if you won't want to be social at all, but if you think hanging out would be a good distraction let me know. *hug*

[av3rnus.livejournal.com]

*hug* Sorry to hear that.

[tsubasa.livejournal.com]

Conni, I'm so sorry. My thoughts are with you and Isis. :(

[corpsefairy.livejournal.com]

Oh honey, I am so sorry.

[leora.livejournal.com]

I am so sorry. I really, really hope she's one of the lucky ones and goes into remission and ends up on the right side of the curve.

[smarriveurr.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I'm so sorry to hear. I hope the vet can give you good news - or at least, as good as the situation allows.

[amakarie.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry Conni. I cannot imagine what you are going through right now. :( I wish I had the right words or answers, just know you, Ben, and Isis are in my thoughts and prayers.

[tammylee.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry. ;___;
I'm crying a bit too thinking about it.
*HUGS*

[beth_leonard]

I'm so sorry to hear that,
--Beth

[rowena-zane.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry, Conni.

[agent-mph.livejournal.com]

I am so, so sorry. I still remember when we stole kitten-Isis from the horrible next door neighbors. Dammit, now I'm going to cry now.

[luckykitty.livejournal.com]

So, so, so many hugs. My boss is going through almost the exact same thing with her cat (diabetes, now cancer). She decided to go ahead and try the treatment, but it's been really tough on her.

Sending you and Isis so many good thoughts.

[corbae.livejournal.com]

oh, Conni. I'm so sorry.

I'm glad that she's been happy lately, and I hope that continues for a good long time.

[doctorskuld.livejournal.com]

I am so sorry to hear that.

It's good to know that she seems to be happy and playing again, but think of it this way. She's had a good life, she's been well-taken care of. Death is also a part of life, and she's lived hers well with you and kirinn. Enjoy her company as much as you can.